Moving on....

Saying goodbye to Matti was a lot harder than I had expected it to be. I figured I would welcome the peace and quiet, the no barking, not having to chase him around the dining room table after he stole Emma's food causing her to have an unnecessary tantrum, being able to leave Levi alone on the floor for a second, not having my legs licked the moment I get out of the shower, being able to have people come to the door without having to juggle the kids and holding him back/quieting his bark so I can hear them, etc. the list goes on and on and on......

Yet, somehow, saying goodbye was heart wrenching. I couldn't let him go. Physically handing him over (just to Felix who was driving him to his new home), my arms felt weak. It was awful. And I expected to be over it within a day. It has been over a week and I am still sad, but it is getting better. I am sure I will always have a hole in my heart for him, but it was still the right decision.

And these two little loves certainly fill my heart right back up! In fact, Emma was in my arms as Felix drove off with Matti, and she gave me a big hug and said "there, I feel'd you all better mommy."



well, hello there Felix Jr.!